Highest weight – 132lbs

Goal weight – 103lbs

Favorite binge food – everything and anything. Crips, cake, chips.

Favorite exercise – i hate exercising but probably cross trainer and dancing.

What makes you slip up? My addiction to food and my lazyness.

What makes you strong? Other people who are doing an amazing job loosing weight 

How many calories do you consume a day? anywhere between 600-3000, I am up and down every day.

What do you see when you look in the mirror? FAT

Are you in a relationship? No

Are you the fat or thin one out of your friends? I’m the fat one at the moment

Are you depressed? yeah my weight has got me down.

Ever been to a psychologist? I have had counselling 

Are you on any medication? No

I am:
[] pro ana
[] ednos
[] bulimic
[] living off diet pills
[X] hungry
[] thirsty
[X] drinking something
[] eating something
[] under 100 pounds
[] starving myself
[] participating in a fast
[] vegan
[] vegetarian
[X] losing weight healthily

People …:
[] ask if I’m anorexic/bulimic 
[x] call me fat
[] say I’m skinny
[] say I’m ugly
[] say I’m pretty
[x] spread rumors about me
[] force me to eat 
[x] say I eat to much 
[] wish I’d eat more
[] don’t know im ana/mia
[] have tried to stop me

I wish I:
[x] was thin
[x] had a better body
[x] didn’t have to eat
[x] could control myself
[] was under 100 pounds
[x] could avoid food
[] could hide what I am
[x] wasn’t fat
[x] was prettier
[] could stop being ana/mia
[x] had a bf/gf
[x] could disappear

I love:
[] feeling hungry
[x] seeing a difference 
[] shaking 
[] being weak 
[x] losing weight
[] being ana/ mia
[x] green tea
[] diet pills
[] being able to turn down food
[x] feeling good about myself

I hate: 
[x] when people stare
[] being asked questions
[x] having to eat
[] wearing short skirts
[x] being single
[x] feeling fat
[x] people seeing my tummy 
[x] feeling ugly
[x] looking this way
[] fat people

I need:
[] more support
[] people to stay out of my business
[x] more friends
[x] someone to know how I feel
[x] less food
[] a gym membership
[x] more water
[] to lose 50 pounds
[x] to lose 30 pounds
[x] to lose 20 pounds
[x] to lose 15 pounds

1. Favorite time to work out? middle of the day but im at school

2. Favorite place to work out? gym but i havent a membership atm

3. Favorite work out shirt? vest top

4. Favorite work out shorts? leggings

5. Favorite work out song? Anything or nothing

6. Favorite weight exercise? The one wear you open your legs

7. Favorite post work out snack? water 

8. How do you get to your work out place? bus

9. Would you work out if you didn’t have to in order to stay fit? honestly, i probably wouldnt but its a habit i wanna change

10. Favorite thing to do to pass time during cardio? try and break previous records

11. How many times a week do you exercise? currently rarely, aim 4 times a week.

12. What gets you most motivated to work out? knowing what i could potentially look like

13. Do you workout alone or with a partner? i work out better on my own

14. Any embarrassing moments while running or at the gym? i get embarrassed when people i know are there because i get really sweaty

15. Water or sports drink? Always water

16. Favorite thing about working out? The pain the next day!!

So I went shopping today, I have gone up two sizes. From UK size to a 12. I am not happy, I am disgusted. I guess i didnt notice because I have been wearing floaty dresses all summer and too busy admiring my newly huge boobs. BUT I dont even want boobs if it means me looking fucking huge for my frame.

So sorry I have been gone, but I am back. Need to get fit, healthy and happy.

Day 1

Breakfast:

-Bowl of porridge with two spoons of flax seeds

-Green tea

Lunch:

- 2 Boiled eggs

- tomato salad (red onion and tomatoes chopped coarsely with balsamic vinegar)

- 1/2 litre of water

Dinner:

- Baked seasoned chick breast (small amount)

- Roasted sweet potatoes 

-Boiled carrots

- 1/2 litre of water

Snacks:

- Celery sticks

- Humous 

- Green tea

- 1/2 litre of water

Day 2

Breakfast:

-Bowl of porridge with two spoons of flax seeds

-Green tea

Lunch:

- 1 wholemeal toasted pitta

- Raw peppers, onions, carrots sliced.

- Slither of humous 

- 1/2 litre of water

Dinner:

- Brown rice (small amount)

- Soy sauce

- Spring onions, broccoli and seasoning

- 1/2 litre of water

Snacks:

- Fruit

- Green tea

Day 3

Breakfast:

- Boiled egg (sliced and seasoned)

- Green tea

Lunch:

- Brown rice stir fried with shallots and tuna (not too much fat or grease)

- 1/2 litre of water

Dinner:

- Baked seasoned chick breast (small amount)

- Roasted sweet potatoes 

- Boiled carrots

- 1/2 litre of water

Snacks:

- Celery

- Humous 

- Green tea

- Water

Day 4

Breakfast:

- Porridge with two spoons of flax seeds

- Green tea

Lunch:

- Protein shake 

- 1/2 litre of water

Dinner:

- Sweet potato mash

- Chopped tomatos 

- Vegetarian sausage 

- 1/2 litre of water

Snacks:

- Boiled egg

- Green tea

-Water

Day 5

Breakfast:

- Baked breakfast (egg, mushroom, tomato)

- Green tea

Lunch:

- Pepper stuffed with brown rice.

- Brown rice boiled then mix in onions, garlic, bits of broccoli)

- 1/2 litre of water

Dinner:

- Baked seasoned chick breast 

- Baked asparagus seasoned with lemon, salt and pepper

- 1/2 litre of water

Snacks:

- Protein shake

- Water

-Green tea 

Day 6

Breakfast:

- Bowl of porridge with two spoons of flax seeds

- Green tea

Lunch:

- Rice noodles with soy sauce 

- Baked chicken strips

- Bunch of vegetables

- 1/2 litre of water

Dinner:

- Tuna salad

- Boiled egg

- 1/2 litre of water

Snacks:

- Protein shake

- Water

-Green tea 

Day 7

Breakfast:

- Bowl of porridge with two spoons of flax seeds

- Green tea

Lunch:

- Protein shake

- 1/2 litre of water

Dinner:

- Tomato salad

- Baked chicken on a bed of pesto

- Treat (A side of your choice to reward yourself this week i.e baked chips…)

- 1/2 litre of water

Snacks:

- Protein shake

- Water

-Green tea 

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Going to stick to this for a week and see how I feel at the end. More then a weight loss diet its to help me train myself to say no to devil foods. Paired with exercise, this low-carb, low-fat diet should be great